I'm not sure if it was any ONE thing that spurred on the FLOW of positive energy that filled my body that Sunday morning. What I DO know, is that the experience turned into something I never expected, and honestly, something I have NEVER felt before. Okay -- there was some -- actually LOTS -- of pain, but SO much laughter!
Now I know why models get paid well. It's WORK!
But in those moments of posing and just BEING, I felt alive. I felt unstoppable. I felt fierce. I felt LOVE pouring out of me. I felt that I was truly loving MYSELF for exactly who I was for the first time.
Yes, I was half-naked in front of 3 people I barely knew, but it didn't matter. I was feeling my body move, breathe, and play.
I was relaxed and totally OPEN to whatever ROXY (my inner diva) wanted to show the world. I opened myself to LOVE. I allowed myself to put all things aside and just BE in the moment. I allowed myself to feel as beautiful and as sensual as I know my spirit was born to be.
And after the eyelashes (AKA EYE SPIDERS) came off, and my sweatshirt, workout pants, and boots went back on, I took a look at the polaroid shot Lani gave me.
And I cried.
Who the fuck knew that I could embrace my sensuality in a way that is soothing yet brings so much powerful, feminine energy to my life (and eventually -- the world?)